September 2011
1 post
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October 2010
1 post
July 2010
4 posts
never doing this again -__- took too long
bored
WHAT WAS YOUR: 1. last beverage = morning coffee 2. last phone call = sPam <3 3. last text message = Mike [: 4. last song you listened to = the acoustic justin bieber one time 5. last time you cried = long time ago HAVE YOU EVER: 6. dated someone twice = yesss 7. been cheated on = not that i know of 8. kissed someone & regretted it = yuppppp 9. lost someone special = yes 10. been...
quote.
“Whenever someone sorrows, I do not say, “forget it,” or “it will pass,” or “it could be worse” — all of which deny the integrity of the painful experience. But I say, to the contrary, “It is worse than you may allow yourself to think. Delve into the depth. Stay with the feeling. Think of it as a precious source of knowledge and guidance. Then and only then will you be ready to face it and be...
A girls' simple pleasures:
littlemiss:
alexisjeanne:
Letting your hair free from a pony-tail at the end of the day.
That smooth sensation you get all over your body right after you shave.
Taking your bra off after a long day.
Getting ready for a day you been looking forward to.
Chillin’ at home, no make-up, bed hair, basketball shorts, in front of the TV snacking endlessly on junk food.
Knowing it’s your last day...
June 2010
1 post
May 2010
16 posts
first day of summer school tomorrow!!
Work at 530am -9 tomrrow, then school from 10-2. hmm I’m definitely burning myself out.
nGod gives you another opportunity when you in no way, shape or form deserve another.
public health.
mmk so I guess i’m gonna take 9 units this summer so I can be on track with public health which means i have school from monday - thursday from 10-2 :/ then ima try to put in at least 20 hours at work on friday, saturday, and sunday.
p.s. I barely have ANY days off. and NEVER any breaks…. I’m tired of everyone taking advantage of me.. i’m tired of doing everyone for other...
heart>mind.. somday that'll be me, for now...
“Always had to be the independent woman that did everything on her own.Never needed anyone to do shit for me. Prided myself on never needing a boyfriend.Never let anybody see me cry because I knew I wasn’t weak.” I read that online today, which is exactly how I feel. I hope one day I won’t be scared anymore. That I’ll choose heart over mind. That one day I’ll...
2 finals down. 2 more to go!!
Oh chemistry how you’ve seriously taken a huge chunk of energy on me. But I guess there’s so much other stuff on my mind too. But I trust in the Lord and that my life is planned out already. So everything that is happening is what is supposed to happen.
I feel like I wanna seriously kill it this summer. I already have one class for sure that I wanna take, but I want one more just so...
Honestly.
I’m filled with fear.
attempt to study.
I think that I’m seriously blessed to have the people in my life. Everytime I’m with them and we laugh I realize why I did what I did. I’m seriously not ready to give them up yet.. not even just a little. Call me selfish but who wouldn’t wanna spend all their time with people who always seem to know how to make you laugh. I feel care free. Or shall I just say free from all...
USuals.
“If this isn’t true then tell me what it is” - hahahahah love that jennifer hudson song!!
grossmont
So southwestern never got back to my app -__- whateves i decided to go to grossmont because they actually have room in their classes. There’s a 6-10pm class on monday and wednesday which I’m seriously considering so I can go to class at night and work in the morning. I’m planning to grind hard this summer. Everyone is talking about rest and shit, and you might hear me complain...
SPAM.
It’s funny cause I think I spamed Rick more than 300 times today. First was 98 and the second was 206. hahahahah its funny when your friends spam you its funny and amusing. but when people are just your regular “friends” it gets annoying just texting back and forth sometimes. - Thats what you call true friendships :) when you like it when they blow up your phone. k lataaaaaa!!!!
before my last rws 100 esssay.
hmm. So I guess the hardest part of my day is the morning -__- but i came up with a saying that helped me be super optimistic and happy today and hopefully for the near future. “deep down i know this is what’s best for me” i feel like everyone was sad today. but for some reason i had a better day :) Idk but i felt happy today. I felt.. THANKFUL haha i sound so gay not so...
Thanks Rev Run!!
Sometimes God doesn’t answer your prayers because what he has planned for you is much much bigger than what you prayed for!!
- I now have this in the middle of a blank wall in my room. Super inspirational for the everyday dose of optimism.
at the 24/7
I have to say that I still always think about the situation and every time I come up with different conclusions of why this is all happening. Today I went walking at Rohr park with my Ate Cathy, and all I could think about was the saying I always say “I’d never sacrifice something long term for something short term.” If this is the part in my life that I have to go through in...
torn.
Do me a favor and for the people who don’t wanna read depressing stories then just don’t read this k?? Cause I’m not in the mood to hear you complain.
I honestly hate how I seriously bounce back every other second. One second I feel fine and I say I know I can do this, but the next second I just feel so down and then I think about is this really the right decision?? YES it is,...
past.. present.. future..
So yesterday.. I had no idea that it was gonna be anything like that. But you have to admit it was for the better. We need to do this, we tried for so long. Maybe we didn’t try hard enough but this is where we are today. At 19 years old we have so much ahead of us. So many plans and goals that we need to achieve. Timing is everything and right now is just not our time.. I hate it because I...
conversations.
So earlier i was talking to someone on the phone for a while. Then after we hung up I realized isn’t it crazy how you can talk to someone for a while but you seriously only remember certain little things?? well at least that’s how I am. I always remember the little sweet things or of course the shit that hurts haha whateves. I just thought about it. i bet you’d never guess it....
April 2010
7 posts
i realized.
that no matter what kind of day your having things can change in an instant. for example everything could be perfect one second and the next thing you know everything just falls apart. vice versa. whateves i’m just sayin cause i was just thinking abouts it lol I hate that tho. how you never really know what’s gonna happen, like you can wake up one morning and everything could just fall...
just a thought.
haha I think waaayyyyyy too much!! anyways so I have B’s in all my classes. which sucks because in some of them I could be having an A but I fucked up in the beginning of the sem -__- over it. but now I really can’t fuck up or else I’ll end up with a C :/ Sooooo Chem please be good to me 2 more times!! Just one more exam and a final!!!! :O I’m so over school but you gotta...
great friends.
good friends great friends are ALWAYS there. Esp. when you need them the most. The times that you spend together when you don’t need them so much, like random hangouts that are filled with nothing but happiness and laughter are the times that matter most. Its the good times that gets you through the bad.
both.
trying to fight for it..
vent
I’m sorry, i’m sorry that i’m putting you through this, or i’m sorry that you don’t know that i feel this way?? I’m pretty sure that you have no idea how I feel. But i honestly feel the exact way I did before, I don’t wanna deal with it anymore. All these rumors and “talks” its so much harder than it looks. You have no idea, cause honestly if...
hmm..
I’m trying this new thing to try to be optimistic. Thank you Lord for everything you have blessed me with. From the start I said it was up to you. And here I am in the middle of it all still saying that. Thank you Lord, and to everyone who’s been keeping me sane.
spring break.
was funner than i thought. i’m truly and happily exhausted :)
March 2010
3 posts
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</3 confused.
mad - ne-yo
honestly, idk if i should be upset, mad or hurt. honestly i feel all of those things.. this is a lot harder than i thought it would be.. i’m panicing in school and instead of making things easier you’re just making it harder. it sucks how after i feel so accomplished from a 3 hour review you do this.. idk, its a lot harder than i imagined, and i think the only reason why i feel so weak...
organizing my thoughts.
idk what anyone knows about me, or how much even. but this is what i know.
at 19 years old i’ve come to realize so much. i feel saddened that i only realize now how much my dad has worked. Just to get us extra money he’s going to school part time for the gi bill and work full time. and lately i’ve just been feeling so bad for him. spending a whole day at work and then school...
January 2010
6 posts
2nd semester.
is about to start this week. i work late tomorrow and tuesday, three straight days of school then work again all weekend. wow this sucks but what sucks even more is that when you think someone is so perfect you’re just wrong. its like an illusion you create in your mind of what you want them to be when in reality theres something about them that isn’t so ideal as you thought. I have no...
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I hate how the only time I feel the need to tumblr is when i’m confused -__- wow honestly i don’t even know what to do anymore. i’m confused and scared to death.
hmm..
okay I admit.. I really do miss you <333 can’t wait til friday or saturday :/
2nd semester.
okay, so i successfully survived my first semester of college. Hopefully i could get through this second semester with organic chem :/ I’m nervous already. It sucks cause large lecture is at 4?! and i don’t get out til 6 -_- what a great schedule. oh and btw did i mention that its a 5 unit class that meets for 7 hours a week -____-
To you: I’m sorry, and no matter how many times...
This is how conceited Rick is. Lol.
jeruhmeezy:
this is soo gross -____- hahahahahhaha!!
December 2009
5 posts
“Things turn out best for the people who make the best of the way things turn...”
– John Wooden (via littlemiss)
new years eve.
okay i hate tumblring. its hard but sometimes i think i really need to or else i’ll blow up one day for absolutely no reason.
people might wonder why when i’m not with them i have all these weird tweets. but honestly tomorrow might be a sad christmas for me. its crazy how a couple days before christmas it seems like its the time where my family wants to fall apart completely....
buds > studs.
I PROMISE MY USUALS THAT NOTHING WILL CHANGE NO MATTER WHAT :)
unfair.
so i told everyone that i only tumblr when i feel sad or something. well today is a sad day for me :( i’m really sad my kuya left for bootcamp.. no matter how much i try to be happy for him i can’t get it out of my mind that he’s not here at all….. i guess its a good thing since i haven’t been eating which means i lost weight -__-
but still i feel like everything is...
September 2009
8 posts
mess.
a couple things to sum up my life.
I’m stressed.
I’m scared.
I’m trying to sort out my life.
I’m still trying to be independent as possible.
but mainly. I’M GOAL DRIVEN.
underestimated.
HAHAHAAH funny how you test me like you know me. DON’T UNDERESTIMATE ME. I’m not that naive girl you used to know.
Thanks Dan for blogging so I didn't need to :D
dansur:
gonna shower soon to start off today :) yayyy. mark’s birthday party for a lil and then off we go to rodis to set up. its gonna be a back to back party and both should be fun and INTERESTING HAHA. i like what im wearing too ^_^ ahahhaa. that should be exciting butuhmmmmmmm sleepover tonight as well :( ima miss my bestfriend kiks coz hes not even coming till 12 am >.> congrats to his...
Thank you to my mom.
“work smarter not harder” -panera bread baker, my motivation for the night. no time to blog, gots to study and sleep.
grind harder everyday.
So today I had school, then went to wingstop and work. I thought I was going to be able to get out at 10 but instead I didn’t get to get out until almost 12. Turns out that my GM is having a meeting with the other higher peeps and needed the store to look spotless.
Okay so you might not want to read all the things I write on here but I just need to organize my thoughts about work and my...
Labor day.
So I guess you can say my plans didn’t quite go through today. I first started off waking up for work and have the redest eyes I’ve ever had. But determined, I still attempted to work. However when I went outside to drive I barley drove a block away from my house when I had to pull over because I couldn’t see. It just felt so bright (btw I was wearing sunglasses) so I was tearing...